New phone?

My phone recently gave out on me.
How unfortunate! Ugh, anyhow. My mom refused to get me a new one so my gracious godfather did me a favor and brought me a BlackBerry Pearl 8130 which just so happens to be on its way right now! I should recieve it in the mail tomorrow, ahh, how amazing (:

On another note.. Im think about VIDEO BLOGGING.
Since Im way to lazy for this 'everyday' kinda thing :/
Blah, How horrible.
Byeeee, guys xP

My Movies List

- Frost/Nixon
- Charlie Wilsons War
- Post Grad
- Flowers for Algernon
- Casablanca
- Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon
- Rosencrants & Guildenstern are dead
- The Good, The Bad & The Ugly
- It happened one night
- American Psycho
- Saving Private Ryan
- Requiem for a dream
- Some Like it Hot

Excused Absenses

Last wednesday and thursday I didn't go to school because of my Pink Eye. There was go school on friday. So I had so much work on Monday morning..
Now, however, today is Thursday and I'm not going to school yet again!
Me and my cousin have to stay in this house and finish up some MORE packing before tomorrow. We have a list, actually.
Here it goes:

-Clean out the garage
-Take the boxes out of the house and into the garage
-Finish the laundry
-FOLD the laundry
-Finish PACKING the laundry
-Pinish packing the draws and whatnot.

Might not be a long list.. but it's definitely a time consuming list, though.
My cousin and I know this.. however, we are both just sitting here watching The E! on TV because theres a special on.. It's called "15 Most Unthinkable Crimes: Young, beautiful & Vanished".
It's over soon.. and I do have a load of laundry in. But I really don't want to get up. Actually, I would really love it if I could just.. go to sleep.
I'll be extremely happy when all this is over and I'm sitting in my own room laying down and listening to music.

Overcrowded!

Another exhausting day.. and it's not even over!
How horrible.
Right now I'm sitting in my living room surrounded by boxes and mess. Boxes of clothes and shoes and books and dishes and everything that's ever in a house. It's driving me crazy how much I wish I could just sit on the floor and color in a coloring book like I did when I was eight. However, I am no longer eight and since I'm the oldest, I have to "do my part" and "help out" so I can't just color or sit on the floor and play tea party, how sad.
What will I do next? I have so much to do..
Here's my list:

-Pack up the rest of the house (do not be mistaken.. for this is NOT an easy feat)
-Make the house look PRESENTABLE for TOMMORROW.
-Take my ACTs. Which is also tomorrow..
-Try to sell more of the stuff that didnt get sold on the day of the garage sale.
-Find all the stuff that I'm missing!
-Start the second line on my Research Paper.
-Finish up all the make up work from the TWO days that I was gone, due to my Pink Eye.

*I swear it's like those two days were the most two productive days of the school year! I have atleast 5 Algebra worksheets along with two Algebra Extra Credits. I also have to take a quiz in Algebra 2.
I have a lab to fill out for chemistry and a couple review sheets for Sociology.
I have to make up a vocab test for my english class as long as two "1984" quizez, as well as catch up to the readings they've finished in the book.
Spanish is OKAY ! Thank goodnesss :D
Pro start is fine as well, though my grade is a "B" in that class... Hm, I wonder why.
Gonna have to fix that!
So much to do and not enough time.. I'm being frantic, woe is me.

Here's an awesome picture of Al Capone, one of America's top gangsters during the Prohibition Era!

Closing

We close on April 30th, and that date just seems to get closer.. and closer! I am so nervous. We have so much to do.. and take care of. I feel like we'll never be done in time. Oh, but how I cannot wait to finally be in my own room and have my own space! Not only does the closing on the new house seem to loom nearer and nearer.. but also the date of my ACTs. How nerve wrecking! Ah, I just hope I get atleast a 26. If I don't I'll be more than beyond upset! I don't want to have to RE-TAKE the test, I just want to pass because I'm smart. I want to get into a good school. Ah, having the stress of education is just to much for someone like me.
I'm young. I want to just BE smart and not have to prove it..
Oh well. Next month I leave this place and finally go back to my HOME, New Jersey.
I will get to do what I want, when I want, Finally, finally, finally.
I cannot wait, I am so excited.
There's much to do so I can't just sit around and type all day! Though I certainly do wish I could!
Smiles all around from me.


By the way, I've just barely started my Junior Research paper.. and its already started driving me crazy! However, there truely is nothing like learning about something you're interested in, and for me thats the Mob during the Prohibition Era!
Sweet, sweet research.

Heres a picture of some neat-o last minute work, I've done!

Wants, wants, wantsss

I kind of just realized that I LOVE to write.. I don't just like it. I love it.
Sooooo, I'm going to write. In order to make me feel better!
For the passed few days.. I've had the urge...
All girls know what urge I'm talking about. The urge.. That urge that comes every so often.
The urge to shop.
The urge to have new things to wear and put in your hair.
That clean, I-look-amazing feeling that shopping gives you, is what I need right now! Mhm, I cannot wait. I havent been to the mall in like a month all because I've been to busy anticipating our move with the rest of my family of seven.
Ahhh, the millions of things that I want sooo badly. Window shopping online usually quenches my need for a while.. but only a while. I NEED TO GO. Aha, Pretty soon.
I want new animal print stuff! And new things to put in my hair, like clips and hair ties and bows and head bands. I want a cute knee-length sundress and a sexy little black dress that makes me look taller than I am. I want a cute mock turtle neck and a knit grey sweater. I want to feel cashmere on my skin and silk on my skin. I want new jeans and cute loosey goosey Tee shirts that are slimming and elegant. I also want jewelery, beaded bracelets and casual earrings. I want leggings and flats and leg warmers and I want tight necklaces that hug my collar bone and loose necklaces that flow down my torso. I want six inch stilettos and dark grey chucks. I wank The Donatellos in a size four and high top black Nike's in a six. I want cute plain colored sandals and simple black flats. I want cut off shorts and American Girl perfume. I want Estee` Lauder cover up and Bare mineral blush. I want Sephora brushes and hair brushes. I want new things for my room! Everything zebra print IMAGINABLE! I want a cute little zebra hamper and cheetah pillow! I want sooooo much. And I love GETTING what I want, I mean.. who doesn't? It's an absolutely amazingly intoxicating feeling! I love it!
I need the mall, and the mall needs me. That's just how it is.
Ahhhh, the sweet relief of knowing exactly what you want and being everything more than determined to get just that!

Saturday for an almost-out-of-her-teens teen

Whoa whoa whoa.. How.. eventful ?
So, I didnt get to leave the house till around 12ish.
When I finally left, I got into Tuckers car and we drove around looking for the party. I had no idea whhere to go, and unfortunately the sophomore who was trying to give me "directions" wasn't really doing that much of a good job. Going down Old Farm, Tuck popped his tire..
How awful right? I know. It was pretty baddd. The whole time hes replacing his tire I'm doing pirouettes in the middle of the road and singing "I feel pretty" Because I love The West Side Story and I got to watch it last weekend ! How awesome.
But it was cold. And my toes were frozen. Tuck kept suggesting I get in the car but i couldnt just leave him there! That's not me. So, We talked and after about half hour we were done! We met up with party goers at a 711 and followed them to the party. The hosue was beautiful... and well stocked? aha. I liked it. And alot of people I knew were there and kind of UTI :x
Not good. I had a really good time though. Except I got home around 330ish and then had to wake up around 8ish for todays yard sale. Which I'm sitting at right now.
Nobodys here.., and it is BEYOND fustrating sooo I just put everything up on craigslist.

*Vamos aver a donde esta dia me mandas! :D

Mission Accomplished!

So remember my bedset quest for a zebra themed room?
Well, the search is over! I went to Target last weekend and for only 64 bucks I managed to get myself a Zebra print Bed-In-A-Bag. Granted: it is not ONLY zebra print. Its got a pretty bright pink lining and I suppose thats okay. My room definitely does not have to be pink. but i just soo figured that i could work around pink purple and yellow for my room since my two favorite colors of all time are purple and yellow and pink was just so nicely thrust upon me! Ah well.
By the way, I also managed to snag up an awesome zebra print stool! For only 10 bucks at ROSS!

Feeling better!

Ahhhh, How much better I now feel!
After getting the stye relief (which somewhat helped.. ), Kenneth dropped off some antibiotics from his house. Now, I know that goes against alot of Doctors recommendations but I don't really care. He dropped off 5mL of Tobramycin Ophthalmic Solution which is "treatment of external infections of the eye".
I got the solution at around 11AM yesterday and since then I have been using it as directed. My eye is no longer swollen or leaking. Its slightly pink and it does itch a little but all types of irritation is almost completely gone! Whoah, How amazing? I'm so glad that Im feeling better that I actually had time to make some cream puffs and fill them up with pastry cream :D
What a quick and easy process ! Hmm, I'll probably try reinventing some type of desert later on due to my boredom. So I might just make is two posts for today xP

Pink Eye

I have it.

And it's absolutely disgusting. It all started around some time last week, since last week I had babysat alot. I babysay my aunts friends son. His name's Christian, and just like any other kid he's absolutely adorable as well as a HANDFUL. He usually listens to me because most kids do. I like to keep a good balance of authority and fun when I babysit, if that makes sense. Anyhow, So after babysitting him I started to have a soar throat.. It hurt a whole ton, and when Christians' mom informed that he had had strep throat once before and looked as if he was to get it again, I figured I'd be getting strep throat. Wrong, I woke up with crusties on my eye yesterday morning.. A whole ton. Again I figured this was just my body fighting an infection, wrong, wrong, wrong. Around my lunch period everything started getting cloudy. There was a ton of mucus build up in my eye and it felt completely dry.
That was around 11.
Three 'o' clock comes and my eye is in way to much pain. Mind you, I had things to do. Ugh, After getting everything done after school (which took about a half hour). I went straight to my aunts job and she gave us a ride home. She brought home some medicine around 8. Which happened to be "Similisan: Stye Eye Relief" eyedrops.
I don't even have a stye ! I was kind of upset, but I didnt say anything because I understood that she was trying to make me feel better. Thanks, aunt.
The eyedrops at first seemed to make my eye worse. Not only was my eye swollen, itchy and red now, it was also hot and more dry than before. After about half hour though the pain subsided. Blinking still hurt though, so I finished an amazing episode of Law & Order SVU (which would get my four stars anyday) and went to bed.
Sleep did not easily come to me. What with the phone calls I kept getting from Alexis who wanted to talk but didnt understand my desire for sleep because of the pain in my eye and took me wanting to get off the phone personally. I constantly woke up during the night to moisture leaking out of my eye and srust sealing it shut. What a horrible night. However my eye does feel slightly better today..
I do happen to resembe The Dark Lord right now with a tan of course, and hair, and a nose. aha.
I hope this goes away soon!

Decorating

I'm buying things to decorate my room with.
This wouldn't be a problem at all.. if I had all the money in the world, but sadly, I do not. So I have to buy things under my budget. That's lame.
My theme however is ZEBRA! I wanted to go for more of a safari meets jungle theme.. but my aunt didntlike the clash of the zebra and cheetah prints which usually look good, but we'd have to get seperate furniture which means to many shades of zebra versus shades of cheetah, if that makes sense.. aha.
Well, we'll see. Since Target.com didn't really help me much, guess it's off to Caigslist !

Being unhappy

Is it normal? To be so unhappy.. so often? Maybe it's because I'm a teen and I'm convinced that "no one" understands.. ? I don't quite know.
I do know, however, that I'm very unhappy at the moment. I spent all of thursday afternoon crying relentless into a box of girl scout Thin Mint cookies because I found a letter Alexis had sent me while I was packing things away.. How pathetic. I sometimes feel like.. Im waiting for something that I know is never going to happen.. or more so, that something is missing. All I know is that,right now, I feel more serious than any sixteen year old girl should ever feel. I just want to go home. 'm so tired of everyone pushing me around because they can. Yelling at me. Telling me that I'm stupid or wrong. Shut up, leave me alone. I wish I could scream and cry and punch right now. What is there to do when you feel like everyone around you is inadequate of sympathizing with your position?

Practice, Practice, Practice

So for the passed two days, since Scott Lowe isn't allowed over, we've been jogging after school. I'd say 'about' two miles a day.. How terrible is that?
I'm sixteen years old and I have a gut. I should be active enough to have a nice firm and tight body. Working out does make me feel good about myself though. Though I assume jogging isn't really much of a work out, I intend on starting something more serious with Scott. I enjoy taking the time with him to better ourselves. Away from everything else.. school and work and home and just everything that isn't about ME, in order to make it just about ME. Me, me, me. That sounds selfish.. but in a house of seven with five kids and me being the oldest. I feel i deserve a little bit of selfishness. I want, for once, to take care of myself, BEFORE i take care of everyone else. Hopefully this works out.
Wish me luck.

My Junior Paper

Today I had a talk with my english teacher and asked him for his "opinion" on my Junior Research Paper Topic, since of course he was against assigning a topic because he wanted us to enjoy our learning experience. However, after handing in my top three topics I found myself incapable of narrowing them down further. I loved baking.. which was my first topic but it seemed unreasonable to correctly follow through with such a topis as "White Sauces". My next topic was Blood Diamonds in Africa which I dont much about at all since all I know is what I saw in the movie..
Ah, My third topic was The Mob, and when I brought this particular topic up to my teacher he asked me to be a tad more specific. I didn't know how to reply besides "..Al Capone.. ?" He laughed and further questioned me on what I knew and or wanted to learn about The Mob or Al Capone or The Prohibition Era.
I want to know everything.
That's how I decided upon researching the mob.
I feel that this paper should be fun and exciting and though I'm sure most of my fellow classmates disagree, I feel intrigued and challenged. Who doesn't enjoy a challenge?

I also have every intention on watching "The Untouchables".

Junior Paper

Sooooo, In order to pass junior year in the state of Colorado you have to show that you're capable of doing research on your own. Hence, the Junior paper. Its huge and long and completely unnecessary but hey- thats school for ya, huh ?
Anyhow. It has to be atleast 1500 words (Which, granted, isn't even all that bad..) and I haven't a clue on what topic to choose and where to start.. any ideas?

Happy happy happy!

WE GOT THE HOUSE WE GOT THE HOUSE.
Oh my! I am just so so very hapy right now.
I get to have my own room! With a door ! My own SPACE! Private, personal space(:
Ahhhhhhh, I can't wait till we can move. But that probably won't be till March-sih, April-ish.. Hmm, vamo aver. Gheez, I am so happy.
Plus MAY is coming. I finally get to go home- To New Jersey!
To my own bed and my sailboat room and my stuffed with nonsence fridge and my friends and my mom and SHOPRITE and that little bakery on Union that I love and all my favoite places to eat ! And so much more. Gheez Im so excited. I can not not not not WAIT ! XDDDDDDDD Happy happy happy.

btw, I just hate colorado weather (:

Purple Passion ?

Soooooo My boyfriends sister did my purple.



If you're thinking what I'm thinking.. than YES,I most definitely want more.
Bleaching my hair twice nearly killed me though -_-
I have to re-dye my hair this weekend cause its closer to lavender & grey now :x
ew.

It's the little things that make you smile

Doesn't this make you laugh ?
I think that no matter what it is that makes you laugh, whether it be vulgar&profanity or silly thoughts in a quiet locker room, its still an amazing thing. Anything whether of laughter is worthy of a memory and those are so important. Ah, I can get through a horrible week with something like this.
Btw, this was taken in The Springs xP
Gah, May is so close. I can already taste the salt water air (:

Valentines Day

was awesome xP

Valentines Day

Whoa, Is tomorrow Valentines day already ? ! eh, This is horrible. I have barely any money and my one month anniversary with Scott just so happens to be on Valentines day -_- He wants to come here.. But I live with SEVEN people. That makes no sense to me, how is that supposed to be a valentines date ? No. Sorry. Whatever.
He wants to come here and do NOTHING, then fine. Guess Im gonna have to buy him a card and make him a nice cheesecake. aha, we'll see. Im kind of nervous.
But todays not valentines day.. its SATURDAY the 13th :/
Im supposed to go to Kreider's house today to work on my Joker Piece. Scott doesnt know about that yet, I kind of dont care if he gets mad because he's going to be at Briannas house anyway and Scotts not one to care much about things like that. Sigh, If only my life could go back to the bliss that it once was.. But that could never happen. :/
I wont be going to Kreiders house alone though.. I definitely dont trust myself.

Shanel's coming with me. So everything will be fine.
blah.

HATE.

is a very strong word. No one really understands anymore how much words can really affect the people around you. Since being in this god foresaken state I've grown accustomed to the people around me. & So of course I would gain some of there peeves. Alexis Angel Hates my voice now. He says I talk like a white girl. I don't know what to do. I used to think that I loved Alexis Angel. With all my heart. I would do anything for him. But I've come to realize that I SHOULDN'T. I should NOT love him more than myself. I should not take him into consideration more than I take myself into consideration. For once, I WANT to be selfish. Is that so wrong.. Im sorry. I do love him. He knows that. And yet he's so blinded by his own selfish attitude that he's not even capable of stopping long enough to think "she must have a reason.." or "she must be as hurt as I am, right now" Of course I'm as hurt as he is ! I mean, we have been in the SAME relationship, right ? Im just sixteen years old. Can't I atleast try to be happy. Alex is in New Jersey. I am in Colorado. Scott is here in Colorado. Scott is what makes me happy. Alex stressed me out. Doesnt that make sense that dear Scott & I would be together.
Kreider is another story, but i refuse to get into that because Im in a good mood and I wouldnt want to ruin it -_-
Sometimes I think that everyone else feels that Im incapable of making up my own mind and sticking with whatever decision that is.
At first I didnt want to be here. But I just refuse now to go back to NJ and live with the mother that gave her children up for a year without a second thought about it. She changed my life and I won't ever forget that.
I think maybe I'm staying. Who knows?

Winter Formal

This was taken right before Winter Formal :]

From left to right its: Scott, Me, Dally & Brianna.

Scotty & I had so much fun together. I cant wait to party hard when I get back to NJ for the summer in May. Gah, Im not sure if Im going to stay here for Senior year or not :/
Decisions are definitely not my forte. I dont know what to do.
Should I stay or should I go now?
gah!

Keilalala

This is what happens when UR to close to a family member -_- things get crazayyy afta school lol

Pro Start Omelette Competition

I love ProStart xD
Its an amazing class and the only elective I plan on carrying with me till the end of senior year. Soooooo We've just recently had our mandatory Omelette Competition where instead of getting put into groups we all have to individually make an omelette using our own or any other recipe within 35 minutes and at the end of the time we would have to have our omelettes platted and ready to be judged next to other omelettes.
I made the DIESEL Omelette. An Amaing friend of mine made my recipe and so I carried it out for my omelette and it was a huge sucess. I dont think I won, but Im extremely happy with how it came out (:
Here you go:

Violet.

Im dying my hair V I O L E T.
& theres nothing you say or do to stop me ;]
My boyfriends sister will be takin' care of it for me. I trust her to do an AWESOME AWESOME job. Ahahaha, she knows her shit xP Soooo Shes doing it MONDAY. Im excited ^.^

This is my hair now:



This is my hair when I DONT straighten it >.< :

Call me a Philosopher!

So, Im no longer with Alexis Angel since Im here in old country.
2thousand miles apart kinda drove us crazy and led us to strongly disliking each other.. :/
Unfortunate sine I care about him so much and since hes been a major part of my life sinec we first met..

:/

I have a boyfriend.

His name is Kenneth. and He's pretty cool. Im kinda nervous to the 10th power about him because I dnt have the same comfort around him as I did with Alex.. blah, i shouldnt compare though. Kenneth is really nice. &Im focusing on the good things now :/
Gawsh, I got high as hell yesterday.
Shit man, Ima fcken philosopher when Im high, lmaooo.