Valentines day

Yesterday was Valentines day.
Sooo, Alexis Angel took me out(:
isnt that nice ? NO. its not, because hes been acting weird lately. and i know exactly WHY. i know for fact that hes been hitting up this chick he wish he banged when he had the chance. Now, your probably thinking im just being extremely over bearing and jealous. WRONG, again my dear friends.
Alexis Angel doesnt hit anybody up. He doesnt even respond when people hit him up. Hitting Alexis up would look like this(if he reponds at all of course because he has been known to use the ESC button to his advantage):

Friend: Hey!
Alex: hey.
Friend: whatsup?
Alex: Nothing.
--end of conversation.

Now why TF is he hitting this chick up, when hes been barely talking to ME these passed few days, i dont know.
dont ask me, and im not gonna say "theres trouble in paradise" because that term is incorrect and will forever be an incorrect term. No relationship is PERFECT even the really fcken great ones are down to the core fcked up.
Now whatevers going on with Alexis he better get over it and stop hitting this chick up, or atleast explain to me WHY he feels the need to contact her at all when A) He doesnt contact ANYBODY and B) Hes trying to hide it.
Of course i give him credit for NOT lying, but hes being dishonest. I tell Alexis everything that goes in my life since me and him have been together. Obviously i know now that this was a mistake. I've learned that he should be treated just as he treats me. Dishonesty is not appreciated, and im sure he'll learn that soon.
On a lighter note, yesterday was nice.
He picked me up around 4ish because unfortunately my mother gave us a curfew today. NINE OH CLOCK. because dearest mother was going out tonight and she feels that the house needs to be babysat, by moi`.
Gee thanks, Mom(:
whatever;
But yeah we head straight to the mall and find that Coraline is giving at 540. yay!
until about 5oh clock we head over to borders because thats my home, and i love it there. Books are my home(:
The smell of books intoxicate me and being with Alex at the same time made me have very naughty fantasies, aha.
maybe i was kidding.. for your sake.
after we've had our fill at Borders we head back to get our tickets. This Alex pays for promising me that i will get to pay for the snacks.
Being with him is amazing even when im extremely upset with him i cant help but laugh at what he says or smile at his beautiful face. He is beautiful in every way. i hope he's not corrupted though, i pray so hard that he doesnt cheat on me. I know we're not a "match made in heaven" But hes all i got, he's my bestfriend. I miss jess alot. but missing her isnt gonna bring her back..
After we watched Coraline (review coming soon, of course). We left the mall and headed to McDonalds where we ordered two number4s and two apple pies. :DD he paid. :/
and then we went to my house to eat up, go us!
it was a nice night all together even though i confronted him about his dishonesty and he brushed it off.
its okay, sooner or later he'll say something. and if he doesnt then i've learned a lesson in all this right ? thus, i now know how he is and how i can afford to be without consequence,
Thanks, Lex. ;]

Love, emmmmm

P.S.
I really hope he doesnt break up with me.

7Months

Today Alexis Angel and I make seven months..

boy, isnt that exciting ? Hm.. seven months. Wow. hmph.

well am I going to reacess our relationship now? Idk. Dont ask me, I dont want too.. but chances are it will happen. I've noticed that my grades arent to par, of course im only a sophomore but everyone claims highschool goes fast. Well that means i need to jump on the ball, because im going to college if its the last damn thing i do, dammit!

So I have to do list where i intend on focusing on certain areas.

Right now im focusing on my BHM (Black History Month) projects.
So I'm gonna cool it, chill out and just.. ya know.

I've come to realize..

that i dont like people,
at all .
as you can imagine this is a very distrurbing conclusion one came come across but hey- i did it, right ?
With this realization I've learned that i dislike people in general and not just the many absurd titles, labels, cliques, genres, ETC. of the average persona because i've also come to realize that the human race cannot breed sucessfully without a harsh and even cruel class system- just the whole frikken crap load of people in this world are waiting for the oppurtuinty to push someone off their pedestal and sit their fat bottom up there.
So, go ahead and ask me. Whats My Problem?
People in general, are my problem.
Yeah, this sucks.
But apparently i've got to live with it.

Due to this knowledge im able to keep myself from throwing up throughout the course of my measely, pretty-much eventless, adolescent day.

*and hey do my a favor by not turning this into some bias post by assuming im exclusing myself from the "the crap load of people" i speak of, hell no. okay, no where in this post did i claim to be above and beyond the pettyness of the average human, notice how i said AVERAGE, and didnt just clump everybody together like we're all just one working organelle. Nope. Im pretty sure i make people wanna fucken throw up too.

Ronnie

You like ?

Okay, so his names Ronnie, and we just so happen to meet by chance. My mother was a faithful viewer of last seasons Make Me A Supermodel and I came across what must be Gods closest-to-perfect Male. Now, i didnt see his physical potential right off the bat however while taking a good long look at his features i did realize they were almost flawless. There was nothing i found wrong with his physical appearance however i should have known it was all too good to be true.
Ronnie and i, nor any other female for that matter, will never in a million years have any type of romantic chemistry. He's homosexual..
This hit a little to close to home and i found this bit of information extremely upsetting. I took it personally. This beautiful man was given the one flaw no female could live with. However, i will never bring myself to call him a "wasted beauty".

The New year

So Christmas has come and gone. Does it really matter is you got an iPod or a new pair of jeans ? as long as it was a nice holiday right ? Hm.. I suppose thats how things should work, its a right shame thatsa fallacy. I got Lucky a batman comforter which i really wanted to get him while he got himself the XBox 360. I think all girls who love their boyfriends and intend on keeping them around should listen to me when i say: "Do not let your boyfriend buy any form of game system that they want if they spend any amount of time at home above average."

I say this not only for the good of mankind but for the well being of every romantic relationship, no matter the age of the relationship or the people comitted. it doesnt matter, because im starting to realize that males hardly ever fully mature. hmph.

anyhow, im going off on a tangent, here(:

Alexis Angel is now fully addicted to XBox Live.

i barely see my boyfriend.

what a pity!



Moving on:So he got me a pair of Coach sneakers that were way too expensive but really nice. he's so sweet (when he wants to be). Mhm. Soo, Christmas was nice though i didnt get Luckys till New years eve when he came over and we opened them together. My mother has the video hah, maybe i'll put it up.

Happy Holidays everyone.
Maybe you're a little stressed out ?
Relax.

*Alone.

She Aint Right by Lee Brice

"She's got her daddy's tongue and temper;Sometimes her mouth could use a filter;God shook his head the day he built her; But i bet he smiled;She loves and lives her life unruly;Tears up that dirt road in a dually;Dangerous? Absolutely!And in a little while she'll be roundin'that corner on 3 wheels, ain't slowin' down,yellin' "C'mon jump in" always up to somethin', crazy got nothin on her."

So, I came across these lyrics and googled them. There really good lyrics and it turned up to be
a song called "She Aint Right" by Lee Brice.
Heres the whole song You guys should definitely check it out:

She got her daddy's tongue and temper
Sometimes her mouth could use a filter
God shook his head the day he built her
Oh, but I bet he smiled
She loves and lives her life, unruly
Tears up that dirt road up in a dualy
Dangerous, absolutely
And in a little while
She'll be roundin' that corner on three wheels
Ain't slowin down, yellin, "Come on, jump in"
Always up to somethin, crazy, got nothin' on her
She ain't right
She ain't right
She ain't right
But she's just right for me
She says she wants to meet my momma
I said, "I don't think you oughta
Be like mixin' oil and water
"But by midnight, she had
Momma on the coffee table, dancin
'Comin' unwound
Good God, I swear, can't take her anywhere
What's the girl gonna do next?
She ain't right
She ain't right
She ain't right
But she's just right for me
Every once in a while, she gives me that smile
And says, "I just don't see somebody like you
Lovin' somebody like me
"She ain't right No, she ain't right
She ain't right
She ain't right
She ain't right
But she's just right, she's just right
She's just right for me
Mmm, she's just right, she's just right
She ain't right but she's just right for me