Junior Paper

Sooooo, In order to pass junior year in the state of Colorado you have to show that you're capable of doing research on your own. Hence, the Junior paper. Its huge and long and completely unnecessary but hey- thats school for ya, huh ?
Anyhow. It has to be atleast 1500 words (Which, granted, isn't even all that bad..) and I haven't a clue on what topic to choose and where to start.. any ideas?

Happy happy happy!

WE GOT THE HOUSE WE GOT THE HOUSE.
Oh my! I am just so so very hapy right now.
I get to have my own room! With a door ! My own SPACE! Private, personal space(:
Ahhhhhhh, I can't wait till we can move. But that probably won't be till March-sih, April-ish.. Hmm, vamo aver. Gheez, I am so happy.
Plus MAY is coming. I finally get to go home- To New Jersey!
To my own bed and my sailboat room and my stuffed with nonsence fridge and my friends and my mom and SHOPRITE and that little bakery on Union that I love and all my favoite places to eat ! And so much more. Gheez Im so excited. I can not not not not WAIT ! XDDDDDDDD Happy happy happy.

btw, I just hate colorado weather (:

Purple Passion ?

Soooooo My boyfriends sister did my purple.



If you're thinking what I'm thinking.. than YES,I most definitely want more.
Bleaching my hair twice nearly killed me though -_-
I have to re-dye my hair this weekend cause its closer to lavender & grey now :x
ew.

It's the little things that make you smile

Doesn't this make you laugh ?
I think that no matter what it is that makes you laugh, whether it be vulgar&profanity or silly thoughts in a quiet locker room, its still an amazing thing. Anything whether of laughter is worthy of a memory and those are so important. Ah, I can get through a horrible week with something like this.
Btw, this was taken in The Springs xP
Gah, May is so close. I can already taste the salt water air (:

Valentines Day

was awesome xP

Valentines Day

Whoa, Is tomorrow Valentines day already ? ! eh, This is horrible. I have barely any money and my one month anniversary with Scott just so happens to be on Valentines day -_- He wants to come here.. But I live with SEVEN people. That makes no sense to me, how is that supposed to be a valentines date ? No. Sorry. Whatever.
He wants to come here and do NOTHING, then fine. Guess Im gonna have to buy him a card and make him a nice cheesecake. aha, we'll see. Im kind of nervous.
But todays not valentines day.. its SATURDAY the 13th :/
Im supposed to go to Kreider's house today to work on my Joker Piece. Scott doesnt know about that yet, I kind of dont care if he gets mad because he's going to be at Briannas house anyway and Scotts not one to care much about things like that. Sigh, If only my life could go back to the bliss that it once was.. But that could never happen. :/
I wont be going to Kreiders house alone though.. I definitely dont trust myself.

Shanel's coming with me. So everything will be fine.
blah.

HATE.

is a very strong word. No one really understands anymore how much words can really affect the people around you. Since being in this god foresaken state I've grown accustomed to the people around me. & So of course I would gain some of there peeves. Alexis Angel Hates my voice now. He says I talk like a white girl. I don't know what to do. I used to think that I loved Alexis Angel. With all my heart. I would do anything for him. But I've come to realize that I SHOULDN'T. I should NOT love him more than myself. I should not take him into consideration more than I take myself into consideration. For once, I WANT to be selfish. Is that so wrong.. Im sorry. I do love him. He knows that. And yet he's so blinded by his own selfish attitude that he's not even capable of stopping long enough to think "she must have a reason.." or "she must be as hurt as I am, right now" Of course I'm as hurt as he is ! I mean, we have been in the SAME relationship, right ? Im just sixteen years old. Can't I atleast try to be happy. Alex is in New Jersey. I am in Colorado. Scott is here in Colorado. Scott is what makes me happy. Alex stressed me out. Doesnt that make sense that dear Scott & I would be together.
Kreider is another story, but i refuse to get into that because Im in a good mood and I wouldnt want to ruin it -_-
Sometimes I think that everyone else feels that Im incapable of making up my own mind and sticking with whatever decision that is.
At first I didnt want to be here. But I just refuse now to go back to NJ and live with the mother that gave her children up for a year without a second thought about it. She changed my life and I won't ever forget that.
I think maybe I'm staying. Who knows?