Valentines Day

Whoa, Is tomorrow Valentines day already ? ! eh, This is horrible. I have barely any money and my one month anniversary with Scott just so happens to be on Valentines day -_- He wants to come here.. But I live with SEVEN people. That makes no sense to me, how is that supposed to be a valentines date ? No. Sorry. Whatever.
He wants to come here and do NOTHING, then fine. Guess Im gonna have to buy him a card and make him a nice cheesecake. aha, we'll see. Im kind of nervous.
But todays not valentines day.. its SATURDAY the 13th :/
Im supposed to go to Kreider's house today to work on my Joker Piece. Scott doesnt know about that yet, I kind of dont care if he gets mad because he's going to be at Briannas house anyway and Scotts not one to care much about things like that. Sigh, If only my life could go back to the bliss that it once was.. But that could never happen. :/
I wont be going to Kreiders house alone though.. I definitely dont trust myself.

Shanel's coming with me. So everything will be fine.
blah.

HATE.

is a very strong word. No one really understands anymore how much words can really affect the people around you. Since being in this god foresaken state I've grown accustomed to the people around me. & So of course I would gain some of there peeves. Alexis Angel Hates my voice now. He says I talk like a white girl. I don't know what to do. I used to think that I loved Alexis Angel. With all my heart. I would do anything for him. But I've come to realize that I SHOULDN'T. I should NOT love him more than myself. I should not take him into consideration more than I take myself into consideration. For once, I WANT to be selfish. Is that so wrong.. Im sorry. I do love him. He knows that. And yet he's so blinded by his own selfish attitude that he's not even capable of stopping long enough to think "she must have a reason.." or "she must be as hurt as I am, right now" Of course I'm as hurt as he is ! I mean, we have been in the SAME relationship, right ? Im just sixteen years old. Can't I atleast try to be happy. Alex is in New Jersey. I am in Colorado. Scott is here in Colorado. Scott is what makes me happy. Alex stressed me out. Doesnt that make sense that dear Scott & I would be together.
Kreider is another story, but i refuse to get into that because Im in a good mood and I wouldnt want to ruin it -_-
Sometimes I think that everyone else feels that Im incapable of making up my own mind and sticking with whatever decision that is.
At first I didnt want to be here. But I just refuse now to go back to NJ and live with the mother that gave her children up for a year without a second thought about it. She changed my life and I won't ever forget that.
I think maybe I'm staying. Who knows?

Winter Formal

This was taken right before Winter Formal :]

From left to right its: Scott, Me, Dally & Brianna.

Scotty & I had so much fun together. I cant wait to party hard when I get back to NJ for the summer in May. Gah, Im not sure if Im going to stay here for Senior year or not :/
Decisions are definitely not my forte. I dont know what to do.
Should I stay or should I go now?
gah!

Keilalala

This is what happens when UR to close to a family member -_- things get crazayyy afta school lol

Pro Start Omelette Competition

I love ProStart xD
Its an amazing class and the only elective I plan on carrying with me till the end of senior year. Soooooo We've just recently had our mandatory Omelette Competition where instead of getting put into groups we all have to individually make an omelette using our own or any other recipe within 35 minutes and at the end of the time we would have to have our omelettes platted and ready to be judged next to other omelettes.
I made the DIESEL Omelette. An Amaing friend of mine made my recipe and so I carried it out for my omelette and it was a huge sucess. I dont think I won, but Im extremely happy with how it came out (:
Here you go:

Violet.

Im dying my hair V I O L E T.
& theres nothing you say or do to stop me ;]
My boyfriends sister will be takin' care of it for me. I trust her to do an AWESOME AWESOME job. Ahahaha, she knows her shit xP Soooo Shes doing it MONDAY. Im excited ^.^

This is my hair now:



This is my hair when I DONT straighten it >.< :

Call me a Philosopher!

So, Im no longer with Alexis Angel since Im here in old country.
2thousand miles apart kinda drove us crazy and led us to strongly disliking each other.. :/
Unfortunate sine I care about him so much and since hes been a major part of my life sinec we first met..

:/

I have a boyfriend.

His name is Kenneth. and He's pretty cool. Im kinda nervous to the 10th power about him because I dnt have the same comfort around him as I did with Alex.. blah, i shouldnt compare though. Kenneth is really nice. &Im focusing on the good things now :/
Gawsh, I got high as hell yesterday.
Shit man, Ima fcken philosopher when Im high, lmaooo.