Woke up
Showered, got Dressed.
Headed for C's quince practice.
it was ttly L.O.
My partner A's cool but has a sweat gland problem that freakqs me out. He didnt look at me once, so now im coming up with a NEW partner. Screw this.
Afterwards.
Partyyyy.
i was there by 9. food was awesome. i had none.
Desserts i had, but i wasnt too keen on the out in the opens.
I hung with Midgey most of the time, and when i wasnt hangen with him, i was either taking care of Hazely or drinking. My cousens hooked me up, though i was no where near B00ZED. maybe a bit tipsy but ughh. Besides that it was a job well lame. could've been better.
i'll top it in the summer while im away at DR. So basically a promising Saturday left me off with nothing but a Sunday Headache...Hmm. next weekends custody.
5.12.2008
5.01.2008
Some Shit
ok so check it.
Im checken my YouTube and something catches my eye on the Videos being watched right now Section and it says "Girlicious". obviously this catches my attention because i used to watch the show with my sister and mom. im not sure why anymore...because it was extremely funny. and i love idiotic competitions maybe? =]
But yeahh check this out cause it is
Some shit yo.
Guarantee to Laugh, i tell you.
X0X0X
-em
Im checken my YouTube and something catches my eye on the Videos being watched right now Section and it says "Girlicious". obviously this catches my attention because i used to watch the show with my sister and mom. im not sure why anymore...because it was extremely funny. and i love idiotic competitions maybe? =]
But yeahh check this out cause it is
Some shit yo.
Guarantee to Laugh, i tell you.
X0X0X
-em
4.30.2008
4.26.08
Saturday.
woke up. cleaned my room.
Bagels&&Coffee.
Barbie stopped by.
Mom takes off with Barb to salsa dancing with Marcus Nieves. :PPP
Showwwerr Time.
Do my hair, take a quick much needed REM session , yell at my sister, finish cleaning my room.
Get a TXT from C.
TXT :: Mall @ 7
i TXT back an answer. hell yeah, why the fuck not ?
call Jess up. Can you come.
Nahh im babysitting. Fack.
anyway. First thing i do when i get there. ADD some piercage. Cartilidge.
so yeah we go cause we want to catch PromNight.
But C's new jerk boyfriend Vicky doesnt want to see it because "its wack, and i already saw it"
C takes that to consideratioin so we get tickets for Baby mama. which is packed.
me and Jasmine just want to sneak into Harold and Kumar...we were already IN the theatre. technically we already paid and everything. But C had promised Vikcy she would "Behave". which obviously means i have to be Twice the ass i usually am.
so the whole time im cursing at people in the mall.
"Get the fuck out my way fat ass"
"R U sure you want to fucken sneeze right by me?????"
"look bytch i dont have all fucken day, give me my change"
"HEY ASS HOLE!! dont cut it out imma go over there and do everyone a favor"
"i might look small bytch but dont fucken start with me"
"MOVE or i will fucking torch you"
"look, its either be nice to me, or meet my 6'2 245lb cousen, K?"
Soo yeahh, when C is "Behaving" im incapable of doing so. i was extremely bad.
After ditching the whole Movie idea we decided to eat. on the way we stop into a few shoe stores where we see alot of people from my school E, C3, J2, alot of people. especially WORKING. gahh. who knew, ehh?
We catch R there too. By himself as usual. who goes to the mall by themselves besides people who are on like last minutes missions. R was just gliding along. i saw him eye Jasz, just like everyother guy at the mall that day.
Being at the mall with Jasz makes you feel INVISIBLE. She gets "Yerooo"s and "hey mami"s and all types of crap. She has a Boy friend which really makes guys take a jab at themselves for being stupid enough to come up to her. but we did meet some cool people. I also got to curse out alot of people...not too mention all of the lovely hand gestures i made =]
But yeah. Jasmine claims she knows everyone....::rolls eyes:: hah.
but shes cool, so i deal.
We finally get to the actual food court where we have .00 options.
we end up getting a footer @ subway cause C thinks shes not hungry. But i already know that bytch is. Me and Jasmine split it in 4, and so i eat 1 and a half. she eats 1. and C slams down the next 1 cause NOW shes hungry. That bytch. Mhm so while me and Jasz eat, Vicky and C make out.
Who saw that one coming?
Vicky ditches when we're done and starts yellen out "Peace Midget Mac!" when hes a good table away. i want to choke him. But i dont. Because C still has that "look" on her face. Eghhh.
When we're done. We roam. the stores R closing at this point. and we were lucky enough to choose a way where there would be some Drama.
Racist people should not be aloud in Malls.
its Stupid. and just Ignorant.
&& so C had to pull me away from alot of things such as jail as i attempted at throttling a woman who looked in her possible 40s. She was Rude. and made me sick to my stomach. Some people...just IRK me.
But yeahh, all in all. an interesting Day
I slept over C's because Sunday was last day of CCD. yes!
woke up. cleaned my room.
Bagels&&Coffee.
Barbie stopped by.
Mom takes off with Barb to salsa dancing with Marcus Nieves. :PPP
Showwwerr Time.
Do my hair, take a quick much needed REM session , yell at my sister, finish cleaning my room.
Get a TXT from C.
TXT :: Mall @ 7
i TXT back an answer. hell yeah, why the fuck not ?
call Jess up. Can you come.
Nahh im babysitting. Fack.
anyway. First thing i do when i get there. ADD some piercage. Cartilidge.
so yeah we go cause we want to catch PromNight.
But C's new jerk boyfriend Vicky doesnt want to see it because "its wack, and i already saw it"
C takes that to consideratioin so we get tickets for Baby mama. which is packed.
me and Jasmine just want to sneak into Harold and Kumar...we were already IN the theatre. technically we already paid and everything. But C had promised Vikcy she would "Behave". which obviously means i have to be Twice the ass i usually am.
so the whole time im cursing at people in the mall.
"Get the fuck out my way fat ass"
"R U sure you want to fucken sneeze right by me?????"
"look bytch i dont have all fucken day, give me my change"
"HEY ASS HOLE!! dont cut it out imma go over there and do everyone a favor"
"i might look small bytch but dont fucken start with me"
"MOVE or i will fucking torch you"
"look, its either be nice to me, or meet my 6'2 245lb cousen, K?"
Soo yeahh, when C is "Behaving" im incapable of doing so. i was extremely bad.
After ditching the whole Movie idea we decided to eat. on the way we stop into a few shoe stores where we see alot of people from my school E, C3, J2, alot of people. especially WORKING. gahh. who knew, ehh?
We catch R there too. By himself as usual. who goes to the mall by themselves besides people who are on like last minutes missions. R was just gliding along. i saw him eye Jasz, just like everyother guy at the mall that day.
Being at the mall with Jasz makes you feel INVISIBLE. She gets "Yerooo"s and "hey mami"s and all types of crap. She has a Boy friend which really makes guys take a jab at themselves for being stupid enough to come up to her. but we did meet some cool people. I also got to curse out alot of people...not too mention all of the lovely hand gestures i made =]
But yeah. Jasmine claims she knows everyone....::rolls eyes:: hah.
but shes cool, so i deal.
We finally get to the actual food court where we have .00 options.
we end up getting a footer @ subway cause C thinks shes not hungry. But i already know that bytch is. Me and Jasmine split it in 4, and so i eat 1 and a half. she eats 1. and C slams down the next 1 cause NOW shes hungry. That bytch. Mhm so while me and Jasz eat, Vicky and C make out.
Who saw that one coming?
Vicky ditches when we're done and starts yellen out "Peace Midget Mac!" when hes a good table away. i want to choke him. But i dont. Because C still has that "look" on her face. Eghhh.
When we're done. We roam. the stores R closing at this point. and we were lucky enough to choose a way where there would be some Drama.
Racist people should not be aloud in Malls.
its Stupid. and just Ignorant.
&& so C had to pull me away from alot of things such as jail as i attempted at throttling a woman who looked in her possible 40s. She was Rude. and made me sick to my stomach. Some people...just IRK me.
But yeahh, all in all. an interesting Day
I slept over C's because Sunday was last day of CCD. yes!
4.19.2008
o4.18.o8
Yesterday was the first day of NY comicon weekend.
i went with my bestfriend J.
we had fun, and i got to see the creator of Star wars...
im thinking of stalking him. XD
we did alot of volunteer work but got an hour off.
during our time off, me and jess managed to
-buy 80$ worth of stuff
-buy blue and red light sabers
-lose C2 like three times
-piss alot of fat people off
-flirt w/ a storm trooper who was asking us boyfriendish questions
-meet a few art/cartoonists inclusind susan heidy*
-get lost...
-fall in love with the storm trooper, whose face we will probably never see... =[
&&all this in just 60 minutes...GAHHh thats cool. but yeahh afterwards mom picked us up.
She dropped us off at the mall where we [finally] enjoyed some food. [mcdonalds].
afterwards we bout expensive tickets to watch half of a movie. [21 with jim sturges...which i cant review... how sad.]
we messed around in the JC penny windows department.
took some funny pictures of making love to all the curtains...and called in a night...
we spent the whole day together...fun. XD
i'll post up the pics later...
*&&thank you susan for personalizing my poster >> http://www.susanheidi.com/
i went with my bestfriend J.
we had fun, and i got to see the creator of Star wars...
im thinking of stalking him. XD
we did alot of volunteer work but got an hour off.
during our time off, me and jess managed to
-buy 80$ worth of stuff
-buy blue and red light sabers
-lose C2 like three times
-piss alot of fat people off
-flirt w/ a storm trooper who was asking us boyfriendish questions
-meet a few art/cartoonists inclusind susan heidy*
-get lost...
-fall in love with the storm trooper, whose face we will probably never see... =[
&&all this in just 60 minutes...GAHHh thats cool. but yeahh afterwards mom picked us up.
She dropped us off at the mall where we [finally] enjoyed some food. [mcdonalds].
afterwards we bout expensive tickets to watch half of a movie. [21 with jim sturges...which i cant review... how sad.]
we messed around in the JC penny windows department.
took some funny pictures of making love to all the curtains...and called in a night...
we spent the whole day together...fun. XD
i'll post up the pics later...
*&&thank you susan for personalizing my poster >> http://www.susanheidi.com/
4.12.2008
Sweeney Todd movie review
Sweeney Todd Demon Barber of Fleet Street with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter.
After hard years in exile for a crime he didn't commit, Benjamin Barker now Sweeney Todd, returns to London to find his wife dead and his daughter in the hands of the evil Judge Turpin. In his anger, Sweeney goes on a murderous rampage on all London, with the help of Mrs. Lovett, he opens a barber shop in which he lures his victims in with a charming smile before casually ending their life with a flick of his razor across their neck. But not one man killed, nor ten thousands men can satisfy Sweeney's lust for revenge on those who've caused his years of pain. *
GAHH, the movie was amazing, Johnny Depp played the role with excellence. Helena Bonham Carter was superb. There was marvelous acting and a great plot thrown in with directing from Tim Burton and it made a wonderful movie. Just watching the movie once makes you feel so in depth with its characters. The ending was one of acute satisfaction and a great needy feeling to buy the soundtrack, XD.
It was wonderful, i love it. Watch it now. or never come read my reviews again.
5STARSZ.
*and thank you http://www.imdb.com for the awesome review. =P
After hard years in exile for a crime he didn't commit, Benjamin Barker now Sweeney Todd, returns to London to find his wife dead and his daughter in the hands of the evil Judge Turpin. In his anger, Sweeney goes on a murderous rampage on all London, with the help of Mrs. Lovett, he opens a barber shop in which he lures his victims in with a charming smile before casually ending their life with a flick of his razor across their neck. But not one man killed, nor ten thousands men can satisfy Sweeney's lust for revenge on those who've caused his years of pain. *
GAHH, the movie was amazing, Johnny Depp played the role with excellence. Helena Bonham Carter was superb. There was marvelous acting and a great plot thrown in with directing from Tim Burton and it made a wonderful movie. Just watching the movie once makes you feel so in depth with its characters. The ending was one of acute satisfaction and a great needy feeling to buy the soundtrack, XD.
It was wonderful, i love it. Watch it now. or never come read my reviews again.
5STARSZ.
*and thank you http://www.imdb.com for the awesome review. =P
3.29.2008
The negativity By - CLara
As the pain in my head subsides, here comes the inevitable. My thoughts. They creep in from all angles pushing through my weak spots, doubting me, mocking me. what am i? not even worth a phone call. The image that i hand out to people is nothing more than a mask...a mask thrown on every day;faithfully. Only to come to the place i call home and die inside. Few people understand what hating your very existence is like...No. This is not only physical hatred...because your appearance can always be changed. Its something more. The hatred of your own personality. Oh how weak and affected i am by my surroundings...crawling in my room to lie on the floor and let the tears flow relentlessly. How all of my actions are uncared for...by even myself sometimes. Who cares if i were to throw myself off of a cliff. Oh how i wish i could do that very thing. Fling myself over great heights and into thrashing water. Never to surface. Its not like anyone would care much. a few tears at my burial...and thats all. A few flowers on my grave so that the shameless can go about their saturday parties cursing me for a wasted 45 minutes. Lately my tears are comforting; crying for no reason, then for all the reason in the world. i beg them please dont near me. i need no one closer because that then gives them the oppurtunity to hurt me further. I am broken. Both inside and out. With the plastic smile painted on my face and the giggles of a teen. Why do i put the charade up you ask? Because, i want them to think that people care for me. That i have love&care. that there is something more than what they see in my face. Doesnt everybody want that? My best friends? Ben and Jerry's Phish Food. My favorite place? The bathroom. Not for the reasons you might assume but because there is the place i can lock myself in and question the girl i see in the mirror...i shoot her smile with my glares and scream at her to be a BETTER PERSON!! i make her cry by flashing her my disgusted looks and then...ever so sublty, i turn to the shower. So that i could cry and they could be washed away. So that not only could i distract myself with the burning water but so that i can also mope alone and without audience. After coming out of the shower, i walk into my room and press my cheek against the cold floor. My mind begs for the stage where i might lose consciousness but all that happens is Pain. The pain in my heart takes over and mocks me. and eventually i lose myself to the negatitvity...
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